Thank you

Hi everyone!  My name is Tabitha Blackmon and I wanted to take the time to thank everyone for supporting Surviving Through Healing. I have read all of your comments and I am so very humble. I found a place where I could share my testimonies with the world, and by the grace of God and only by his grace, this site has reached so many people.  I was shown over a year ago that writing will be my way way of healing as I help someone else with the same process. As God continue to heal  through this ministry, He has purposed in me to write a book. By this I would like for everyone to continue to share this site. I will not be here for a while due to this committment, but I will keep this page open for everyone to read in your spare time, and also share with anyone you know that are going through difficulties in their life. I will continue to keep everyone updated on the progress. Please keep me in your prayers , we are in a time now where we all need each other and there is no other way to help your brother or sister other than the prayers of the righteous.  I will lift you all in my prayers and no matter what you go through in life, remember to keep christ first in your life.  All things are possible through Jesus Christ. Whenever you face the impossible in the natural, look into the spiritual realm where you will see all the promises God has for you.  I guarantee greater is coming your way, May God continue to bless and keep you all. 

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Continue The Race

 “The sense of obligation to continue is present in all of us. A duty to strive is the duty of us all. I felt a call to that duty”-  In previous stories I have mentioned visions, dreams, journeys, and purpose. Throughout life I came across stumbling blocks and decided to sit and wait until it was a good time to get back up and keep running. We all start the race full speed, so much drive and expectations but once life begin to turn it’s back from you, rejection after another, we begin to lose confidence so we become tired, and slowly we move toward the finish line.

    We realize that others whom started the race with us has now passed us by and now here comes discouragement because someone else has the opportunity of now making it the finish line first. At this point in the race, we begin to push, pumping harder and harder to make it; sweat pouring the intense desire in your eyes, deep breaths from your lips while our hearts are rapidly pacing. Thinking to ourselves, I can do it, I can do it, but… You continue to see others pass by, and at that moment you have lost all hope. I want to tell you about  Abraham Lincoln, and as I read his story I begin to visualize myself at the starting line and where I am today.

    1816- Abraham Lincoln’s family was forced out of their home. He had to work to support them.

    1818- His mother died.

    1831- Failed in business

    1832- Ran for state legislature- lost

    1832- Lost his job- wanted to go to law school but couldn’t get in.

    1833- Borrowed some money from a friend to begin a business and by the end of the year, he was bankrupt.  He spent the next 17 years of his life paying off debt.

    1834- Ran for state legislature again- won

    1835- Was engaged to be married, sweetheart died and his heart was broken.

    1836- Had a total nervous breakdown and was in bed for 6 months.

    1838- Sought to become speaker of state legislature- defeated

    1840- Sought to become elector- defeated

    1843- Ran for Congress- lost

    1846- Ran for congress again- this time he won

    1848- Ran for re-election to congress- lost

    1849- Sought the job of land officer in his home state- rejected

    1854- Ran for senate of the united states- lost

    1856- Sought the vice-presidential nomination at his party’s national convention- got less than 100 votes.

    1858- Ran for US senate again- he lost

    1860- Elected president of the United States.

    Now when you look at Abraham Lincoln’s time-line, you will see he lost, he was rejected more times than he won. Guess what? He kept going, rejection after rejection, all of the debt he owed, deaths of loved ones, the dream to have a business and failed twice, the desire to go to law school, and he was not accepted, but yet he made it to be president. How can you start off with nothing, poor, broke, busted, and disgusted and make it to the top? Strong minds, (positive thinking) Hope, Faith, Vision, Integrity, Perseverance,

    Abraham Lincoln had some obstacles thrown, and most of us would have given up at the point of your family losing everything they had and only YOU were the support. The load on his back at the beginning of his race, but he kept his eyes on the finish line. He didn’t fall when people turned their backs, he didn’t fall when people criticized, he didn’t fall because he gave his all to receive nothing; He was persistent and continued to strive and work even harder for his dream.

    At the middle marker in his track of life; what he dreamed of, what he had envisioned for himself turned out to be greater than his expectations. He wanted a BUSINESS! Turned down twice to only see that it wasn’t his purpose in life. God made him a leader! The leader of his family, the bread winner, the air for everyone around him. God showed him at the beginning of his race that he was a front liner, he will win the gold medal because in all doing, he had Faith that he would make it to his destiny. He went a step higher taking a leap of faith and still rejected, but he continued the race, and by the grace of GOD he didn’t fall, he didn’t look back, he didn’t look to the side just to see what was going on around him, he didn’t look to see who was passing him by, he didn’t stop at a rest area because he was tired of trying. HE KEPT GOING AND MADE IT TO THE FINISH LINE.

    What ever you have dreamed for your life, what ever your vision may be, continue the race. Your road may become a little rocky, but kick those rocks don’t worry about dusting off you will have bigger rocks to kick on the way, but pick up the pace and keep moving. Our destiny is in our hands, what ever we put forth will determine our reward at the finish line.

   The path was worn and slippery. My foot slipped from under me, knocking the other out of the way but I recovered and said to myself ” It’s a slip and not a fall. Abraham Lincoln- After losing a senate race

 

 

 

The Love Of My Life

    A lot of us ladies talk about our dream man, we want someone that could just sweep us off of our feet. Let me tell you about the Love of my life.

    I have the greatest love of all. He was a childhood sweetheart and throughout my life I’ve been dodging him, but always found my way back to him. Oh, we kept in touch but I was so busy out with other men, this man just continued to pull on me telling me he loved  me and said I was his wife since he first laid eyes on me.  You know the song that says, “You love me, especially different ; you keep me, on my my feet, happily excited; Your touch, your hand, your style your intelligence; you kept me, you caught me, you taught me, give me some things to think about. Ladies he is all that to me!

    Have you ever had a man to stick by you when you’re down and out? Pick your head up when it hang low? He touched my heart when it was broken, whispered in my ear to comfort me, dried my tears and told me he would never leave me. He had my medicine when I was sick, when I thought I was dying he told me I was going to make it.  He made sure I had money in my pocket, gas in my car even helped me pay my bills when I was running short. Whew! 

Oh how I love thee…

    The sweetest thing to me, no one would’ve thought it could ever be. 

    Oh this love is so real, the love of my life make me feel; like the woman I am, oh he knows the deal.

    All the men would kill, but he came back to me and took the wheel;  My driving force, the evidence of my day of course.

Oh how I love thee…

    How could I have been so blind, all the times he blew my mind; Even proved he could turn my water into wine, and told me to come and dine; He had a feast, he fed me and washed my feet, washed me clean that I would no longer fean; For the desires of what any other man could offer, even the liars.

Oh how I love thee…

    He picked me up and carried me so I wouldn’t walk alone; He said if I ever needed him to call, he’s always sitting by his phone.  Now what man sit by his phone all day waiting on his woman to call?  I don’t know anyone at all..  He said he even has a throne, you see how my man ball?

Oh how I love thee…

    He extended an invitation for me to join him, I would love to spend my life with em’  and not go down to brim.  The love of my life keeps the smile  on my face, and reminds me daily that by his grace, he will always take the place in every case that burdens thread me on thin lace. He saves me!

Oh how I love thee…

    Do you  see why I call him the love of my life? I will forever be his wife. You know he married me even when I didn’t say I do. Yes he is that type of man that is persistent and love me when I am inevitably consistent, turning my back away.  I am ready to introduce him.  I would never hide a love like this, nor could I be ashamed in the midst of those who, dismiss..

Oh how I love thee…

    He goes by the name “JESUS”.. MM! Something about that name that gives me chills, whew!  JESUS the sweetest name I know,  and for that I love him even mo’. For  the rest of my life he is who I’ll be living for. “The love of my life”

EXISTING TO LIVE

   I spent my life trying to figure out why people never understood me. I walked around being judged, criticized, ridiculed by people who say they couldn’t figure me out, but never took the time to try.  So, I considered myself as the outcast, I’m existing in a world where people look down at me and say,”It’s you!” “It’s your fault!” “You hurt me!”  “I don’t care!” ”You don’t know nothing!” ” Whore!” ” Prostitute!” Stupid!” “Wanna Be!”  All of these things has been said to me and caused bitterness, insecurities, low self-esteem, lack of will power,”dirt in a hole”.  I buried myself daily because I felt my surroundings shoving me in the hole.  I was existing, there was no life in me, the life I had become extinct, nothing left but a sack of bones. Negativity burned my flesh, and I breathed the mid-night air that sucked me dry. No one seen the tears, but they seen the darkness that had overtaken my life.

I suffered through rape Men forcing themselves acting as if the words “no” or “stop” never flowed from my lips. 4 months pregnant with a child I never knew, making the decision because the father did not want it nor me. Making my way in the modeling industry, I attached myself to a photographer that expressed he loved  me, but took the advantages of me with an unborn child inside. Date rape Double dating, out with drinks, but come home  to power and force overtaking me, destroying inside and out. Being in an abusive relationship thrown to the ground with clothing torn apart wanting every inch of me while I cry out.

Teen mom A teenage girl at the age of 15 who planned a pregnancy to feel loved and have someone to love.  I went years without hearing the words “I love you”, but once they were heard they hurt me deeply. Pregnant with a child with a guy who cheated and everyone knew but me.  As a little girl, experiencing another girl climb on top of me caressing my body when I didn’t know right from wrong. Being in relationships as a woman where marriage became focus, but the same words created a triangle with another woman unmentioned looking for the same thing.

Going to church looking for peace and those to confide in and help me to christ, but treated me exactly as a sinner (I knew nothing).  All of my life the words from my lips , the emotions of my heart were never heard because I was existing in a world of nothing. I was treated as nothing, a nobody, a rock in the dirt, only existing to become extinct.

TODAY, I DECLARE LIFE… I Rise from the hole that kept me guarded, I Rise into new flesh, I Rise to fresh air, I Rise to new life, I Rise to see hope, I Rise to see change, I Rise to feel love, I Rise to dream again, I Rise to freedom, I RISE to bury old bones, I RISE to stand, I RISE to see the strong, confident, intelligent, beautiful woman in me. I RISE to live even when no one around me notice who I am.

I live for me, I live for my children, I live for those who are in the existing state of being, I live so others can live and see the life Christ saved me from with understanding he will do the same for you, I live because MY LATTER WILL BE GREATER THAN MY PAST. I WILL LIVE AND NOT DIE.  I am no longer existing to extinction, I exist to live life to the fullest of my God-given abilities. TODAY I DECLARE LIFE!

I Have Recovered

I faded away and turned to darkness there I stayed

Recover

Fearing the dark that followed behind

It caught up with me and took over my mind

Recover

A heart of fire with intense sexual desires

flesh over flesh it had I possessed

Recover

Buried with scars puddles of tears raining hard

Threshold of death almost took my last breath

Recover

The womb with life breathing air

Made that decision, now they’re no longer there

Recover

Eyes piercing my flesh

Selling God’s perfect sculptured art he made from Adam’s breast

Recover

Old Bones Old Bones oh broken bones

Ye that loved me covered my bones with stone

Recover

Sick with disease that man could not find

my hands my feet my eyes, my heart spirit and mind.. Lord I submit! God said now is not your time

Recover

I look to the heels from whence cometh my help, all these years I wept

through mercy and love I was kept

Recover

Yea thou I walk through the valley of shadow of death I will fear no evil

The enemy never let me rest, but through Jesus Christ my savior, I stood up to the test

Recover

True Love has found me, now I accept the call

The devil wants to stop me, and I’m marching until his fall

Recover

I stand I stand I look to the heavens on high

My hands lifted up my mouth filled with praise

Father God I thank you, my life has been raised

I have recovered through the storm I have recovered from Satan’s possession I have recovered through the fire

I stand still! I stand still! I stand still!

My arms open wide

The wind of God carries me

I stand on his promise

I’m grateful I have the victory

Now I am the woman of God he has made me to be

I HAVE RECOVERED

A Bed Of Snakes

I believe they’re so many who fear snakes.  A dangerous creature who will attack if threatened or depending on the type of snake, will attack even if in sight.  We also refer to snakes as serpents(devil).  In my teenage years I begun to dream about snakes, and every dream the snakes would surround my bed, but I would awake if one tried to attack.  The dreams of snakes came every once in a while, but stopped for years.  I noticed that the dreams come when I chose to live for God and ended up at square one again.  Last week, I dreamed I had just awaken and about to clean my room. I take off the comforter like I’m going to change my bed, but I soon receive a visitor at my home which is a very good friend of mine who volunteered to help me clean. So I get back to my room to finish my bed, and starting to change my linen, I see 3 black worms, looked as if they were coming out of my bed trying to come through the sheets.

The 3 worms were going around in a circle and suddenly became bigger growing into snakes. 2 black snakes began to come through, and my friend and I looking for something to kill them with begin to chop their heads. One big black snake turned into a red snake trying to attack us. We both trying to kill it, but my friend was attacked, making her arm swell moving up her arm.  Still fighting the snake, I was able to kill it.  That sunday morning, my pastor, Pastor Nina Davis preached a wonderful message, speaking about having strength in God overcoming our weakness only through God. We can’t do it on our will or strength. So that night, when I dreamed and awaken, that message came to me again. interpreting I had awaken and arose from my weakness, but I had 3 to try to attack that weakness. One bigger than the others(serpent) trying my strength.  In reality I would’ve run, but that dream, I fought it as hard as I could, seeing him bite my friend, but I was determined, he wasn’t going to defeat me, I eventually won.

“Greater is he that is in me” We’ve all faced a snake, some even now as I speak to you.  Things that break us away, and take us from the road of peace and salvation, success, hope, love.  Sometimes our weakness can be blocking what’s ahead of us.  Blocking something greater than what you’re holding on to.  I put you to a challenge, and face that snake in the eye, whatever or whomever it is that’s trying to set you back on your journey, say” It’s Over!” ” I God’s Got This!”  Watch that snake disappear before your eyes and watch the greatest thing ever happen, because you decided to fight not by your strength but because you let God take over. Now victory is yours! No more snakes distracting my change!

Taking It To The Next Level! Are You Ready?

      My way of healing are steps and events that has taken place in  my life rather good or bad.  I wanted to share the best healing process to overcome any obstacle in life.  My way of healing is walking in your calling, every move I’ ve made, every person that has come and gone in my life, every vision received,every word spoken, has all played a part in my journey.  We have so many things to take place in our lives, experiencing death of a loved one or friend, major accidents that left life threatening injuries or minor but you yet came out walking. Family splitting such as divorce or separation, heart breaks which left you insecure and low self-esteem. Can’t find a job especially when you have experience. Illness that are incurable or leaving you with disabilities. the list goes on.

 

Did you know that the series of events that we encounter happens for a reason?  It drives us to our purpose!  Think back to everything, can you point out anything that made you think so hard to where you said, “Wow, I never would’ve imagined that would happen”, or “It’s a miracle!”  Those are the words and the events that shows us there is a purpose for us ALL!  We overlook it all at times, and say “oh that’s life, it happens.” Yes it is life, but when God gives you life, he designed you with purpose.  So when I finally begin to “reflect” on my life, I begin to see that my purpose has driven me to be a testimony. So once you “recognize” your purpose, it’s the marking and starting point of something greater, something miraculous. It’s time to turn it up a notch, it’s time to take it to another level!

 

Are you ready? Warning: Life is not free, we are here to pay a price. In order to receive a nice pay check we have to work for it.  It takes labor; which comes with headache and exhaustion, but at the end when we have a few dollars in our pockets, we’re good.  At the end we all would like to receive our crown and mansions, but it takes labor, we have to work for our reward. It’s time to take that life’s driven purpose to the next level. Some of us are lazy, but you know laziness does not get the job done, unsatisfactory= termination, but determination for a bonus or raise= job well done, and at the end of my journey and hard work, I want to my boss to raise me up and say well done and give me my reward.  I am ready to climb my ladder, even though I’m not so good with heights, I know determination to get to the top will end up in heaven.

 

Turn up your meter! I’m fired up! ( 2 John 1:8- Look to yourselves that we not lose those things we have worked for, but that we receive a full reward.)  Too many think that staying at the same level or temp is good enough.  You’re doing a half job which makes you comfortable. When you take it up and move forward you can just about taste the end mark.  When the boss see you pushing, and putting in more effort, you’re blessed with benefits before you get your big pay.  Our heart desires, our needs! Our needs he shall supply! Supply and demand; God comes with a bargain plan that no man can offer. Are you willing to take it?

 

If you’re ready get on the starting line with me! Let’s finish this race together! On your marks! Get Set! Go!  “For God I Live, For God I’ll die!”